2002-12-23
"day one"
i managed to avoid the mother yesterday...i somehow manifested a serious headache...she used to stay with me for these oh-so-fucking-joyous christmas visits...but after so many years of me losing it, her show of tears and leaving to stay with my aunt, she just stays with my aunt now...skip the middleman, avoid the drama
so the plan was to have dinner after work...fine...then my car wouldn't start so i had to call her for a ride to work...i don't know...she didn't do anything, i just go into automatic defense-mode just anticipating being in the same physical space
so i took a xanax about an hour before i got off so i would be in fine form when i had to sit through dinner with her...it was a good thing...because i anticipate the sentences that begin with "you should...", "you need to...", "you really shouldn't blahblahblah"
but this time they were aimed at kris...and that pisses me off even more than when they are directed at me...but i was mellow enough to be only mildly irritated...so i made eye contact with kris while she was blahblahblah-ing...and i mocked her while she talked...we do this often...she never understands why all of a sudden we get the giggles like a couple of idiots...which only makes us laugh more
stormi got me this really cool hand-blown glass pipe for christmas...what a sweetie...it's really pretty...i'm so tempted to get the mother to eat a brownie
(i'm terribly evil)
