2002-11-10
"love..."
2002-09-20
"love..."
I am once again reminded of something I learned years ago.
People will come into your life, see this unbearable pain in your eyes, and find it impossible not to love you.
Time passes...my misery drains their life force...and they are forced to cut me loose.
A drowning person will desperately cling to someone who is trying to save them. The would-be savior is forced to push them away in order to save their own life.
I don't hold it against them though. I've had to do the same thing to others myself. Such is the nature of a compassionate heart. Your tender heart wants to help someone in need, but eventually you realize you cannot help this person, and in fact, they become a threat to your own emotional health.
I'm trying to be ok with this. Rationally, I understand.
But the words of my father keep ringing through my head. "Everyone is tired of you and your problems."
Well I've got some news for you Dad...I'm tired of me and my problems too.
