2003-01-08
"notebook '98"
ohmygod i am like a comet blazing through the sky...hyper diaper...i've already jumped on the trampoline...sam dropped by and got me high...jesus christ i could set that to music
i'm creating tank girl disciples out here in "bantucky"...living in this town is like living in a very bizarre TV show...i've been inspired to make a short film...stormi insists on being a vampire...i of course will be tank girl
i found an old notebook from '98 that i used to write in........
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Johnny Appleseed went down to Kansas to see about buying a mobile home. On the way there an old scarecrow told him a crazy tale of a young girl and her dog who ended up in the Land of Oz. Gold fields dotted with poppy the reddest shade of red I ever did see. Millions of minutemen dance across the fields.
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embryo. embryonic. manic. passive. submissive. futile. intelligence. christianity. euphemism. elated. ecstatic. free love. satiation. austin. freedom. mind hammer. rodin. van gogh. nuclear holocaust. black flag. raid. skinny puppy. these are the things that make me real. flash of light. memories flood. quicksand. preserves. concert. acid. car. hill. dark. crash. blood. death. glass. boots. wallet. last time. goodbye. alone. long gone. be gone. be still. quiet. peace. light. clouds. blue sky. birds. tree tops. roof tops. river. quiet.
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Me and Lisa used to get so fucked up. One day we'd been smoking god-knows-what for god-knows-how-long at a friend's apartment. After staring at our hands for what seemed like hours and occasionally busting out in laughter for no apparent reason, we were cordially invited to leave. I remember thinking "Oh god, we've got to walk all the way downstairs and all the way to my apartment." A thirty second walk took us 10 minutes. Somehow we got lost. Managed to find the front door. Then I see Lisa looking for something on the ground. I say "What're you looking for?" She says "My gum." I say "What're you gonna do with it when you find it?" She stood up, looked at me with a puzzled look on her face, then says "Oh."
I think when we were kids Lisa used to think I liked making her look stupid. But, she really didn't need my help.
